First at all... I know that that I am my own worst enemy... I try not to be... and most of the time I have no idea that I am doing it...
Their is this need inside of me to do things and say things... I fight it so hard, and I do not know why because it's what I really want.... Take for example I was in the mall the other day talking to my friend... this really cute girl comes into the store and all I want to do is speak to her.... though I cannot bring myself to do it...
Honestly their have been so many situations exactly like this and it kills me, the times I have opened myself up it's been a kind of hit in the middle... not good or bad... just partly in the right direction
Currently I feel like I am inching closer and closer to an intersection... unlike a highway I have many paths to choose.... Should I think them through as always... or close my eyes spin and take the step that leads the way not having a clue to where I am going...
Their have been people close to me that have made impacts on me... Who have I made an impact on?
Eh... I guess I'll just ponder this some more
