Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Jacksonville And I

From Jacksonville ...

From Jacksonville ...

Sarah and I went to Jacksonville Beach, Fl Sunday - Tuesday.... it took forever to get there due to the storms.... when we got to the beach it had calmed down and so we went out to the beach for a while and had a good time.... later that night some of her friends showed up (one was Russ the owner of Ink Addiction) so we went bar hopping and had a really good time(we went to Joe's Crab shack twice)... the next day we went to regency mall and picked up some stuff for my mom and had lunch... she went out to the ocean for a while i was too tired from not getting sleep the night before... so when i was ready they were all exhausted.... So we went to the room and watched a movie... we then went and had dinner from Harry's which turned out to be a bad idea cause she got sick..... so we went bowling and went back to the hotel... we spend some time talking things over.... and we decided to spend less time together so things will be easier between us :D

overall a kick ass trip :D

the downside is.... well over the past few weeks... my stress has been getting worse and worse... I have become very attracted and care a deal for Sarah and she is going to be moving sometime soon... it might be a couple weeks or a couple months (i am happy and hopeful this will be a good thing for her, but i will deeply miss her).... i let her see how many problems i have and it made her fear for my life.... i promised her that i would go to the doctor after i took her home....

my doctor didn't like the idea of getting me on the meds again... because last time i took it and when i felt i was fine i just stopped taking it (that can kill you i was stupid) due to me having another breakdown in his office he gave me lexapro and loranzepam and told me i have to go back in a week.... which i will do... what he really wanted me to do was spend some time in the hospital for he was fearing for my life also

What I need is more friends.... and things to do...... which may be difficult because i and different from most and i can be a difficult person to be around......but i am getting better

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